- When I’ve only had 3 hours of sleep in 48 hours, lessons to prepare, a class to teach, a daughter to look after, and a hubby to keep happy, and no time or place to just wind down, then I feel I like breaking down and crying.
- When I’ve lost my temper with my Tehani, and I scare her or hurt her, glimpses of my own past play out behind my eyes and I begin to cry.
- When I’m craving some “me” time and I really need it, but can’t get it, or am afraid to ask for it, for fear of hearing complaints that would just send me over the edge and bring out the worst inside of me.
- When I’m left to do things on my own without help or support from some of the key people in my life, then I feel abandoned and I pitch myself into a defeated state and wallow in self-pity and cry out of anger, embarrassment, self-pity, and just because I’m exhausted.
When I experience these things on a regular basis, I get exhausted. I’m just looking for a little relief here and there, someone to ease the burden a little, and there’s only so much other's can do for me. I just have to press forward and try to handle these moments with a little more grace and patience.
ohhh brie!! i feel for you...well, kind of. i mean i hope you're okay. let me know if you ever need anything, k? that's what sisters are for! and i know u have two million sisters, but you know what i mean. we're not too far away, so holler if you need us!
ReplyDeleteoh harm! i feel the love! yes i'm okay, i just added on responsibilities and stress. and to add to that, i'm sick! ugh! talk about MISERABLE!
ReplyDeleteBrie, I love and appreciate your honesty. Sometimes, crying is the only way to get it all out and be able to start anew. I get overwhelmed too - it's no easy task taking on the responsibility of motherhood, and add on top of that all of the other millions of ways your time and energy is being pulled...Hang in there. You are a strong and beautiful woman. Luckily kids are not only durable, but VERY forgiving! We've all been there; I've seen you with Tehani, I know you love her with all your heart. Don't beat yourself up if you get frustrated with her - I do with my kids too!! Don't forget that when you do your very best, that's all the Lord could ask for. Love You Brie, Take Care my friend!!
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